Pluto loves Jupiter.

Sunday, August 22, 2010 @ 9:51:00 PM

Sometimes, it's difficult being in the middle, and I wonder why I always am.
I lead a sad life, how sad.
Sometimes I wished I could just take my stand.
By the time I realise, it's too late.
I'm just too insensitive. I naively believe that everything will stay the same, and everything is tolerable. No matter how much it hurts me, I can accept it. To the point that I hurt myself, without even me knowing it.

This is not like me at all. Even Yijia said so. I wished I could laugh from the bottom of my heart again.

I'm tired, very tired. I don't know. In the past, no matter how tired I am, I can still cope and carry on with life. But now I'm really tired, I want to sleep, and more importantly, I want someone who really understands me and willing to listen to me.

I feel disappointed, in so many things, in life, in people. Times when I feel most disappointed is when others don't appreciate. Appreciate, appreciate, appreciate... how many times have I been repeating this word?Very very tired. And somehow I've already lost trust in a lot of things. Thing is, I don't even believe in myself. Nothing stays eternally.

Why am I so naive?

Yes, I suck, and this is the first time I've ever felt so pessimistic.
I want to cry :/