Hello this is Jeline Chia. I live in Singapore. Love ARASHI and EXILE totally. Takahiro is so hot. Love kite-flying too! I play the cello and my cello name is Aiba, greatest wish is to own an ARASHI kite. I love hamsters too because they are as cute as me. Extreme drama fan, can't live without dramas. J-pop ftw totally! Not forgetting 6S'08 and 2H'10! RVSE is the love and 5th PSB stays in my heart. Loves to read newspapers but not storybooks. I have short hair but I'm not short heehee :D Pluto loves Jupiter!

Upset because of a lot of things, three reasons.

First, studies. I think I can't cope anymore. Especially Maths and Science. I failed the assignment, yeah, maths assignment. I feel so damn paranoid during the test today. I'm not doing well in anything! Everyone around me excels in their studies. Me? My results are deteriorating. I wonder, why is it that others can return home so early, while I can only reach home at 7+? I mean, no more concert, no more competition, why am I still in school? Is it because I have too much commitments? I only know I don't have enough time to study, to sleep? My maths assignment? I feel super upset because I did the assignment to 12.30am and I still flunked it. You know how disappointing it is? Why spent so much doing something that you know you will never excel in? I'm screwed, so screwed.

Second, Feifei. I'm afraid, I'm afraid that she will leave me soon. She's developing the same symptoms as Shoushou before she passed away. My hamsters are so precious to me. But they have to pass away some day. I swear, the night Shoushou passed away was the worst night I ever had. I was about to sleep and I found out that you passed away. I practically cried the whole night. I didn't even sleep properly. I can never forget Shoushou, the joy she brought to me, and pain. I could vividly remember, how much I feared holding on to your cold body when you died. I regret not spending time with you before you passed away. I knew you were going to leave me soon, but I never thought it would be that night. I am afraid that Feifei will leave me like how Shoushou did. Shoushou, I miss you a lot. I wished you would come back to me, for a day, a day for me to spend more time with you.

I am upset, truly upset. I wish people could read my mind. As I've said, I am not a person who shows everything on my face. Neither will I tell anyone my feelings. I'm not an "open" person. I wish someone could really read my mind, realise how stressful I am and comfort me. It's a bit too much. I hope someone will share the burden with me. I'm not a superwoman. I can't be cheerful all the time. I can't be making everyone happy. Why am I always the one who bears such great responsibility? I want to run away, away from the glares of reality. The world is too scary, dangerous.

If you didn't realise, the third reason is you.