Hello this is Jeline Chia. I live in Singapore. Love ARASHI and EXILE totally. Takahiro is so hot. Love kite-flying too! I play the cello and my cello name is Aiba, greatest wish is to own an ARASHI kite. I love hamsters too because they are as cute as me. Extreme drama fan, can't live without dramas. J-pop ftw totally! Not forgetting 6S'08 and 2H'10! RVSE is the love and 5th PSB stays in my heart. Loves to read newspapers but not storybooks. I have short hair but I'm not short heehee :D Pluto loves Jupiter!

Yes, morning woke up. Still feeling moodless because of Shoushou's death. And I didn't sleep well because I cried again, yesterday night.
You might think that it's stupid for me to cry over a hamster for 2 days straight. But to me, she really mean a lot. And her death was so sudden. Almost 2 years of memories couldn't be washed away in just 2 days. And whenever I think of her stiff and cold body, I couldn't help but to cry.
Didn't have the mood to celebrate Mothers' Day in the morning. But still, said Happy Mothers' Day to mummy. Guess she was worried about me too. I wonder if Shoushou was celebrating with us or not.
My mood got slightly better in the afternoon. Ate instant noodles with sisters for lunch. And the jokes they made out of the noodles I Eileen cooked really cheered me up. They can get over SS's death in such a short time, but I can't. Like I've said, I need better control of my emotions. Then went for dinner with family. Nice food, nice atmosphere. But I just can't stop thinking about FF. She's alone, in the dark. So lonely, in the past she might have fought with SS over some stuffs. Now, she can't even find someone to play with. "Will she feel scared in the dark?" I kept thinking of this question.
Everything links me back to my hamsters. I've lost SS, so suddenly. I don't want to FF to leave me, without any warning. I really don't want to regret.